Didn’t feel like blogging for the past few days as I don’t think that anyone much will probably care to read or pay some serious attention to my blogs. But this entry that I am going to write is to talk especially so about someone, think she will know when she sees this. I feel totally frustrated about this little friend of mine….how can you ever make her know what the freaking hell you are talking about when to you it all seems so correct and proper? Maybe I I am the one being the evil one here trying to implement whatever I deem fit onto others but why are my sincere concerns treated as if I am out to hit someone? You are irritated to hear what I say but I am even more irritated when you can’t see what I am trying to put across correctly. I know different people see things differently but what I am unhappy about is that it is slumped back in my face, as if I am talking to the wall. How could anyone misinterpret such things? What The Fuck!!! Don’t’ read on if you are the person in this topic
Let me open with this statement:
“When you are most humble, you are most proud”
Sounds a little ironic? But it is totally true. It is because when you have humbled yourself to the lowest level, you will be proud that you are humbling yourself. It is a human psychology…you may not notice it but it is there. By the way, I did not make up this statement myself, I really read it somewhere before.
Before I begin: let me declare to the word that I hate myself too you know, I am just like any other human being with flaws and off cause there are reasons to my own understanding to like or hate myself about whatever and whenever.
“要别人爱你，得先学会自爱”That was the statement that my Chinese teacher in P5 always repeated in class and I still remember I till today although I do not know if I am actually heeding the advice myself but I certainly try my best to love myself for this s the most sound statement that I have ever come across. How the Hell do you convince someone that she needs to love herself more and stop all that degrading of herself thingy?
Well, there is only one person that I am talking about and in I will just call her D in this entry. I think this is already very obvious.
I NEVER believe that anyone can be born smart or stupid. I totally believe that the environment is the one that creates the ultimate altitude of a person, a smart but absolutely hopeless person is as good as any trash. I NEVER believe that examination results can determine everything for there are many other more important things in life and many more other ways of measuring it. Very sad to say, no matter how the government of Singapore changed anything, it remains the fact that results are important but in my opinion, it is only the passport to grant you to the next game level. It determines where you go in life for without the passport all things are made difficult.
I totally hate it when people bad-mouth about my friends although I think that I do that sometimes myself but if there is anything that is going to be said about my friends, I ensure that it does not even get the slightest out of hand. I will disagree with anyone to just keep the my friends from criticisms even if it is all true, I am that bias. Some things need only be notice but not named.
I get mad at people trying to criticize my friends to low levels but what do you do to someone who criticizes herself? I get even more pissed and uncomfortable. Although I try my best not to choose friends(not as thou I got a lot to choose from) but what I am trying to say is that if you are my friend, you definitely have something in you that is unique in you which means that you are special. I don’t just make friends with Tom, Dick or Harry!! I do feel offended by someone who degrades herself in front of you every time without fail. It is irritating. It is n insult to me: you mean I choose a wrong person to befriend? It is just totally pissing. WILL YOU PLEASE JUST STOP ACTING UNWORTHY?! I DON”T believe in this bullshit theory!!
“Put yourself in my shoes, I am lonely, helpless and incredibly hateful of myself. I am worth nothing. Would I risk a friendship for my pride? No. I value my friends so much that I would put their well being above mine. I will sacrifise that in which I love for the happiness of my friends.”
That was what D said. What Bullshit?!! You think you are mother terresa?!! Lonely? Hateful? Helpless? Don’t label yourself with things that can not be associated with you. ”I wonder if you noticed? Everytime you complain or voice your opinions with regards to a situation, I would spare no effort to neutralise the situation and make you happy. I do this not because I am silly and easily manipulated. I just do not want to see you unhappy. I want to let you know that in this world, someone actually cares.”
It’s totally stupid that you try to make everyone else in the world happy at the expanse of yourself. I totally hate that too. Say what you feel and need to if not why are you guys still friends? A scolding or a quarrel does no mean that you care less you know? You said that you have grown up; you said that you have been in the education system for as long as I have; you said that I know that you are from a better school…. Do you know that the ore you say such things the more you do not know what I was speaking of? Time spent on this earth does not equal maturity; a young adult does not mean anything at all in the same way too. Being in the education does not mean educated, not that I am saying anything hurtful but that it is the attitude that determines one’s altitude. What really pissed me was you brought up the better JC thingy, never did I once discredit you based on such a foolish ideology, yes, I do think that a lot of the low end JC students are cannot make it but I never once applied that to you for you are not just a student in another jc, you are someone I know personally.Sad to say, the longest friendship will also come to pass. 天下无不散之宴席 even in the Lord of the Rings, the fellowship parts in the end, at least physically. This is a reflection in real life. Friends of more than 12 years can slowly fade away, everyone have their own life to lead you know, how can you be so selfish and keep them bonded to you forever? If it comes to pass or slowly fades, you got to move on too!
If everyone is telling you to work harder, that means there is REALLY a PROBLEM! You may not think so, you may argue that you are trying your best at studying doing this and that but do you know that studying is not the same as making yourself study? Every other day is an excuse, just forget it, if you don’t want your grades then forget it. I will nag no further. I will not tell you anything more in relation to this for even if there is a problem, as in slacking or not really studying and concentrating, you will just try you best to manipulate yourself out of the situation with some stupid excuse. Studying is not counted by how many chapters you finish today but if the material really went into your heart and head and stay there!! If you are hopelessly adamant about it, nothing in this entire world can save you.
Let me open with this statement:
“When you are most humble, you are most proud”
Sounds a little ironic? But it is totally true. It is because when you have humbled yourself to the lowest level, you will be proud that you are humbling yourself. It is a human psychology…you may not notice it but it is there. By the way, I did not make up this statement myself, I really read it somewhere before.
Before I begin: let me declare to the word that I hate myself too you know, I am just like any other human being with flaws and off cause there are reasons to my own understanding to like or hate myself about whatever and whenever.
“要别人爱你，得先学会自爱”That was the statement that my Chinese teacher in P5 always repeated in class and I still remember I till today although I do not know if I am actually heeding the advice myself but I certainly try my best to love myself for this s the most sound statement that I have ever come across. How the Hell do you convince someone that she needs to love herself more and stop all that degrading of herself thingy?
Well, there is only one person that I am talking about and in I will just call her D in this entry. I think this is already very obvious.
I NEVER believe that anyone can be born smart or stupid. I totally believe that the environment is the one that creates the ultimate altitude of a person, a smart but absolutely hopeless person is as good as any trash. I NEVER believe that examination results can determine everything for there are many other more important things in life and many more other ways of measuring it. Very sad to say, no matter how the government of Singapore changed anything, it remains the fact that results are important but in my opinion, it is only the passport to grant you to the next game level. It determines where you go in life for without the passport all things are made difficult.
I totally hate it when people bad-mouth about my friends although I think that I do that sometimes myself but if there is anything that is going to be said about my friends, I ensure that it does not even get the slightest out of hand. I will disagree with anyone to just keep the my friends from criticisms even if it is all true, I am that bias. Some things need only be notice but not named.
I get mad at people trying to criticize my friends to low levels but what do you do to someone who criticizes herself? I get even more pissed and uncomfortable. Although I try my best not to choose friends(not as thou I got a lot to choose from) but what I am trying to say is that if you are my friend, you definitely have something in you that is unique in you which means that you are special. I don’t just make friends with Tom, Dick or Harry!! I do feel offended by someone who degrades herself in front of you every time without fail. It is irritating. It is n insult to me: you mean I choose a wrong person to befriend? It is just totally pissing. WILL YOU PLEASE JUST STOP ACTING UNWORTHY?! I DON”T believe in this bullshit theory!!
“Put yourself in my shoes, I am lonely, helpless and incredibly hateful of myself. I am worth nothing. Would I risk a friendship for my pride? No. I value my friends so much that I would put their well being above mine. I will sacrifise that in which I love for the happiness of my friends.”
That was what D said. What Bullshit?!! You think you are mother terresa?!! Lonely? Hateful? Helpless? Don’t label yourself with things that can not be associated with you. ”I wonder if you noticed? Everytime you complain or voice your opinions with regards to a situation, I would spare no effort to neutralise the situation and make you happy. I do this not because I am silly and easily manipulated. I just do not want to see you unhappy. I want to let you know that in this world, someone actually cares.”
It’s totally stupid that you try to make everyone else in the world happy at the expanse of yourself. I totally hate that too. Say what you feel and need to if not why are you guys still friends? A scolding or a quarrel does no mean that you care less you know? You said that you have grown up; you said that you have been in the education system for as long as I have; you said that I know that you are from a better school…. Do you know that the ore you say such things the more you do not know what I was speaking of? Time spent on this earth does not equal maturity; a young adult does not mean anything at all in the same way too. Being in the education does not mean educated, not that I am saying anything hurtful but that it is the attitude that determines one’s altitude. What really pissed me was you brought up the better JC thingy, never did I once discredit you based on such a foolish ideology, yes, I do think that a lot of the low end JC students are cannot make it but I never once applied that to you for you are not just a student in another jc, you are someone I know personally.Sad to say, the longest friendship will also come to pass. 天下无不散之宴席 even in the Lord of the Rings, the fellowship parts in the end, at least physically. This is a reflection in real life. Friends of more than 12 years can slowly fade away, everyone have their own life to lead you know, how can you be so selfish and keep them bonded to you forever? If it comes to pass or slowly fades, you got to move on too!
If everyone is telling you to work harder, that means there is REALLY a PROBLEM! You may not think so, you may argue that you are trying your best at studying doing this and that but do you know that studying is not the same as making yourself study? Every other day is an excuse, just forget it, if you don’t want your grades then forget it. I will nag no further. I will not tell you anything more in relation to this for even if there is a problem, as in slacking or not really studying and concentrating, you will just try you best to manipulate yourself out of the situation with some stupid excuse. Studying is not counted by how many chapters you finish today but if the material really went into your heart and head and stay there!! If you are hopelessly adamant about it, nothing in this entire world can save you.
I am The Fool
